Ok its probably not a good idea, but well am off work at moment and bored so figured why not get upto more mischief? Really should start to take stock of the fact it seems my entire life revolves around bdsm and get myself some new hobbies!! for some reason though stamp collecting doesnt seem to sound as much fun!!
Last nigth I picked C up from the airport, was good to catch up again as both of us had a few busy days behind us, we'd arranged that he was coming here for a coffee and a shower after his flight before driving him back home.
C before he went to England had been given a rather simple task of keeping bright red nail polish on his fingernails for the weekend away. The naughty boy decided though to remove it on the plane over!! Well things like that cant be let slide? I decided when he got out the shower that it would be fun time to try the mousetraps i;ve had sitting in my toy box for a while now, think I got 8 of them on him, 6 on Mr wiggly and one on each of his nipples, was quite amusing although kept having to restrain myself from properly snapping the trap :)
After the mousetraps we decided that we would see if could beat the record set by B of 50 clothes pegs to the groin. I kinda surprised myself by being able to fit 60 clothes pegs on C's crotch, was quite impressed with myself!! Although it now means that will have to try for 70 on B! :)
Tonight I did a session with J, always fun to do a bit of corporal punishment, although my hand is still a little on the stingy side from all the spanking. Combined a bit of wax play in as well which is always fun, although really must get some better candles for it, really must also put off cleaning wax off the carpet till next day!!!
Monday, 6 September 2010
Saturday, 4 September 2010
The drop has hit
For some reason whenever I play the day after unless I find some way of keeping myself active I always end up finding myself feeling pretty down. Normally the more intense the play the more this drop hits. Normally for some reason I find the drop hits me harder when I've been domming, however I think my lack of chances until recently to sub have kinda scewed this view.
This evening i;m currently feeling like I'm suffering the worst hangover in the history of creation, I have a splitting headache, i;m restless, i'm tired all bundled into one. I think its due to a few factors, I;d been so busy over the last week or so that havent been giving myself my usual break between sessions, I think my endorphins that i've overdosed on with all play for the last couple of weeks are leaving my system. major case of sub drop and my usaul sugary drinks and doritos cure isnt touching this!!
This evening i;m currently feeling like I'm suffering the worst hangover in the history of creation, I have a splitting headache, i;m restless, i'm tired all bundled into one. I think its due to a few factors, I;d been so busy over the last week or so that havent been giving myself my usual break between sessions, I think my endorphins that i've overdosed on with all play for the last couple of weeks are leaving my system. major case of sub drop and my usaul sugary drinks and doritos cure isnt touching this!!
Heads still spinning!
Not sure what to say about last night other than "WOW!!!".
Without a doubt the most intense experience I've had so far in the BDSM world.
Went to S and M's with A (feck me these abbreviations are starting to confuse me!!!). To get the evening started I thought would be funny to give S a bite on the bum, just to give an excuse really for play to start, not that really need an excuse for badness but it adds to the fun. :)
Before I knew it I was laying there naked face up, watching as my boobs, stomach, and thighs were tormented with S's firebatons and 70% rubbing alchohol. I;d experienced fireplay once before on my bum and back and must admit the head fuck/fear factor was so much higher from the front where u can see the flames coming in and hitting you, seeing a pool of fire sitting on your skin is very very scary to say the least!! After my front had been tormented I then was rolled over onto my front and had my back and bum set alight.
After a little while I luckily got a break and got the chance to enjoy watching A getting the same treatment :) Was amazing to watch, the technique involved is absolutly amazing.
Before too long it was my turn to be tormented again, this time was my first proper experience with needleplay, other than having 3 needles stuck in my arm as a demonstration its not something I;ve tried before, me being me and having to always go the extra mile had decided that my first proper experience was going to be a full blown needle corsett. Luckily M was able to hold my hand all the way through it, while S & A applied the needles. Must admit sometime during this session I completly spaced out so no idea what order things were done to me, but while had the needle corsett in I was spanked, cropped, pinwheeled, more fireplay, stood on, kissed and spanked some more!!!
This was my first ever experience of subspace, it was quite exhilarating to say the least, I'm never normally relaxed enough to be able to achieve any kind of zoning out, not entirely sure if this time was different because the play was more than a little bit on the edge, or if was because it was with people I trusted implicitly? maybe a combination of the two. Who knows :) i dont think going to get too caught up on trying to understand it, I know it was a good feeling and thats all that matters :)
Just after finally getting my head together and almost getting myself back to reality I somehow found myself being "picked on" again and before I knew it I had clothes pegs on my nipples, around one boob and all over my pussy and thighs. I hate having my boobs and nipples clamped, very very sensitive around that area.
Next it was A's turn to be tormented and another new experience for me. This time I got to do the inserting of the needles, very powerful and intense feeling having someone trust you enough to push sharp pointy objects into thier back. Absolutely amazing experience, really loved it and definetly adding needleplay to my list of favorite fetishes, seems I have a few people lined up already wanting to try it!! :)
After doing the needle corsett on A myself and S proceeded to spank her, making her bum a rather toasty red colour. :)
After cleaning up and making sure all the sharp pointy things were removed and all leaking bits of subs had stopped leaking the badness continued and I was tormented with yet another spanking and some rather hurty play involving my leg and a elastic band. Stragely of all the things done to me that night, it was the elastic band that left the most marks!!! :)
Without a doubt the most intense experience I've had so far in the BDSM world.
Went to S and M's with A (feck me these abbreviations are starting to confuse me!!!). To get the evening started I thought would be funny to give S a bite on the bum, just to give an excuse really for play to start, not that really need an excuse for badness but it adds to the fun. :)
Before I knew it I was laying there naked face up, watching as my boobs, stomach, and thighs were tormented with S's firebatons and 70% rubbing alchohol. I;d experienced fireplay once before on my bum and back and must admit the head fuck/fear factor was so much higher from the front where u can see the flames coming in and hitting you, seeing a pool of fire sitting on your skin is very very scary to say the least!! After my front had been tormented I then was rolled over onto my front and had my back and bum set alight.
After a little while I luckily got a break and got the chance to enjoy watching A getting the same treatment :) Was amazing to watch, the technique involved is absolutly amazing.
Before too long it was my turn to be tormented again, this time was my first proper experience with needleplay, other than having 3 needles stuck in my arm as a demonstration its not something I;ve tried before, me being me and having to always go the extra mile had decided that my first proper experience was going to be a full blown needle corsett. Luckily M was able to hold my hand all the way through it, while S & A applied the needles. Must admit sometime during this session I completly spaced out so no idea what order things were done to me, but while had the needle corsett in I was spanked, cropped, pinwheeled, more fireplay, stood on, kissed and spanked some more!!!
This was my first ever experience of subspace, it was quite exhilarating to say the least, I'm never normally relaxed enough to be able to achieve any kind of zoning out, not entirely sure if this time was different because the play was more than a little bit on the edge, or if was because it was with people I trusted implicitly? maybe a combination of the two. Who knows :) i dont think going to get too caught up on trying to understand it, I know it was a good feeling and thats all that matters :)
Just after finally getting my head together and almost getting myself back to reality I somehow found myself being "picked on" again and before I knew it I had clothes pegs on my nipples, around one boob and all over my pussy and thighs. I hate having my boobs and nipples clamped, very very sensitive around that area.
Next it was A's turn to be tormented and another new experience for me. This time I got to do the inserting of the needles, very powerful and intense feeling having someone trust you enough to push sharp pointy objects into thier back. Absolutely amazing experience, really loved it and definetly adding needleplay to my list of favorite fetishes, seems I have a few people lined up already wanting to try it!! :)
After doing the needle corsett on A myself and S proceeded to spank her, making her bum a rather toasty red colour. :)
After cleaning up and making sure all the sharp pointy things were removed and all leaking bits of subs had stopped leaking the badness continued and I was tormented with yet another spanking and some rather hurty play involving my leg and a elastic band. Stragely of all the things done to me that night, it was the elastic band that left the most marks!!! :)
Friday, 3 September 2010
More mischief
My continuing quest to avoid having to actually face reality and come down from the highs of play continued yesterday. Had C over for a spot of duct tape mummification. Was probably the most restrictive bondage I've ever put someone in, covering them from the neck to thier toes in firstly clingfilm, then silver duct tape.
The original plan was to have done the head as well, but common sense prevailed and we decided to see how he went with just his body confined for this first time. In order to amuse myself though I did leave a hole for "mr wiggly" to pop through which I proceeded to torment with a load of clothes pegs. :) A blindfold and duct tape gag completed the effect.
Once I had him sufficiently immobilised I realised it was the official chat night of the local bdsm group alternativeni.co.uk so I proceeded to log in and take suggestions on just how to torment poor C.
The badness should be continuing tonight as going to get to try some more needleplay and fireplay. Should be fun!! :)
The original plan was to have done the head as well, but common sense prevailed and we decided to see how he went with just his body confined for this first time. In order to amuse myself though I did leave a hole for "mr wiggly" to pop through which I proceeded to torment with a load of clothes pegs. :) A blindfold and duct tape gag completed the effect.
Once I had him sufficiently immobilised I realised it was the official chat night of the local bdsm group alternativeni.co.uk so I proceeded to log in and take suggestions on just how to torment poor C.
The badness should be continuing tonight as going to get to try some more needleplay and fireplay. Should be fun!! :)
Thursday, 2 September 2010
The dreaded first blog!!
I've never kept a diary before or done a blog, this is all kinda new to me, so figure bear with me and we'll see where it goes. Who know's I'll probably end up bored and go get upto more badness rather than writing about it!!! Really don't know where to start!!!
It's been a bit of a chaotic week this week, I normally dont like playing more than once or twice a week as I know afterwards that the come down hits me pretty hard, this week though has been a bit of an exception to the rule.
Not sure if theres any kind of ettiquette as to how far should go back in each blog, or how frequently should update, but figure its my blog and I dont like conforming to rules!!!
I suppose this latest batch of badness and mischief started last Friday. There's probably something ironic in the fact my blogs titled "ramblings of a trainee domme" when my first little anecdote is going to be about me being a good well behaved submissive (for once i wasnt bratty and didnt bite once!!!).
Friday I'd arranged for A and D to come over, A is a female submissive, D a male dom and me being a greedy female switch. Was the first time I'd experienced the dynamic of 1 dom, 2 subs and it was rather fun, although very hard to control myself not to jump in and deliver a few spankings myself!!! I did get to experience needle play for the first time, and although was just a demonstration with 3 needles in my arm it was rather a intense experience. Due to lack of dom/mes around it's not often I get to indulge my submissive side and was one of only a few times I;ve had my bum beaten this year, must admit I hadn't really realised how much I missed it.
Saturday/Sunday I had the lovely B around, B I dont get to see too often as is a bit of a drive away, and weekends always end up so chaotic. Had a great time playing around with candle wax, pinwheels, floggers and assorted other "hitty" things. Although all the bdsm play was on the saturday night, had a very relaxing day on sunday spending most of day in bed, theres nothing like a good snuggle after playing!!
Monday I had W over, must admit had got myself a little nervous on this session, I was very much aware that was first time I had played with them and although I'm not inexperienced I readily admit that I have a lot to learn and always get a little anxious when playing with someone for the first time. In the end all seemed to work out ok and we both had a good time, yet again was told I had sharp teeth!!!
Tuesday was intended to be a chill out vanilla day of going out for a meal and cinema with C, C as well as being one of my playmates is also one of my closest friends and was looking forward to a bit of relaxing. We'd arranged to meet up at 6pm for dinner with tickets booked for avatar for just after 8. My plans for a vanilla day where soon messed up when had a text message from S telling me I was cheeky for suggesting biting her bum and needed punishing, I replied that it'd have to wait a few days as was going out to cinema, but she decided that a few swipes of the cane would make the whole cinema experience more memorable.
Well to cut a long story short between the meal and the cinema I had to sit for about 5 hours on a very bruised bum, was very hard not to wiggle about too much :)
Wednesday I went to a bar to interview a potential new sub, as am running out of letters will call him S1 for lack of anything better. Was a very pleasant hour chatting over drinks about various topics, now have a lot of thinking to do as to whether I have time to fit another submissive into my circle of playmates. After seeing S1 I then found myself heading over to S & M's (no pun intended with abbreviation there!!) for a quiet couple of drinks and a gossip.
So all in all its been a busy week, I'm currently still riding a two week long endorphin high at present, and more kinky badness planned for both tonight and tomorrow night. Am actually dreading when things calm down a bit as I know I'm going to probably end slumping pretty badly. When I play I always find that theres so much emotional intensity that nothing else could ever match the highs that you can get from a session, but as with any high there has to be the come down eventually. This one I think is going to suck pretty badly, but figure it'll have been worth it. I've had such a fantastic time recently and got to experience some very pleasant feelings and emotions
This last week has got me thinking a lot about what I am actually looking for in life, so much of my life revolves around the BDSM scene, all my friends are involved within it to some degree or another, it's within the scene and more particularly the local group http://www.alternativeni.co.uk/ that I have my main support and feel that I can be myself, and indulge in all my kinky pastimes.
Somehow I've currently ended up with quite a number of play partners, part of me is wondering if thats a good thing or not, am I just playing with a lot of people so I dont become close to anyone person to protect myself? I dont think I am? I know theres a big difference in way I feel during and after play with people I am close to rather than just people I'm aquainted with. I love the feeling and the emotional connection during the scene with those that I have high levels of trust with, certainly is a lot more intimate feeling, even if no sex has occured during the session.
I think its that intimicy that I am getting addicted to, despite the fact that I play with a lot of people there is a closeness I think between me and a lot of those, the levels of trust I have with people is greater than I've ever had with anyone in the past. Would I still be capable of being monogamous? I dont know anymore? Really not sure what i'm after anymore, what I do know is that I'm not after encounter after encounter just for the sake of kinky sex :)
It's been a bit of a chaotic week this week, I normally dont like playing more than once or twice a week as I know afterwards that the come down hits me pretty hard, this week though has been a bit of an exception to the rule.
Not sure if theres any kind of ettiquette as to how far should go back in each blog, or how frequently should update, but figure its my blog and I dont like conforming to rules!!!
I suppose this latest batch of badness and mischief started last Friday. There's probably something ironic in the fact my blogs titled "ramblings of a trainee domme" when my first little anecdote is going to be about me being a good well behaved submissive (for once i wasnt bratty and didnt bite once!!!).
Friday I'd arranged for A and D to come over, A is a female submissive, D a male dom and me being a greedy female switch. Was the first time I'd experienced the dynamic of 1 dom, 2 subs and it was rather fun, although very hard to control myself not to jump in and deliver a few spankings myself!!! I did get to experience needle play for the first time, and although was just a demonstration with 3 needles in my arm it was rather a intense experience. Due to lack of dom/mes around it's not often I get to indulge my submissive side and was one of only a few times I;ve had my bum beaten this year, must admit I hadn't really realised how much I missed it.
Saturday/Sunday I had the lovely B around, B I dont get to see too often as is a bit of a drive away, and weekends always end up so chaotic. Had a great time playing around with candle wax, pinwheels, floggers and assorted other "hitty" things. Although all the bdsm play was on the saturday night, had a very relaxing day on sunday spending most of day in bed, theres nothing like a good snuggle after playing!!
Monday I had W over, must admit had got myself a little nervous on this session, I was very much aware that was first time I had played with them and although I'm not inexperienced I readily admit that I have a lot to learn and always get a little anxious when playing with someone for the first time. In the end all seemed to work out ok and we both had a good time, yet again was told I had sharp teeth!!!
Tuesday was intended to be a chill out vanilla day of going out for a meal and cinema with C, C as well as being one of my playmates is also one of my closest friends and was looking forward to a bit of relaxing. We'd arranged to meet up at 6pm for dinner with tickets booked for avatar for just after 8. My plans for a vanilla day where soon messed up when had a text message from S telling me I was cheeky for suggesting biting her bum and needed punishing, I replied that it'd have to wait a few days as was going out to cinema, but she decided that a few swipes of the cane would make the whole cinema experience more memorable.
Well to cut a long story short between the meal and the cinema I had to sit for about 5 hours on a very bruised bum, was very hard not to wiggle about too much :)
Wednesday I went to a bar to interview a potential new sub, as am running out of letters will call him S1 for lack of anything better. Was a very pleasant hour chatting over drinks about various topics, now have a lot of thinking to do as to whether I have time to fit another submissive into my circle of playmates. After seeing S1 I then found myself heading over to S & M's (no pun intended with abbreviation there!!) for a quiet couple of drinks and a gossip.
So all in all its been a busy week, I'm currently still riding a two week long endorphin high at present, and more kinky badness planned for both tonight and tomorrow night. Am actually dreading when things calm down a bit as I know I'm going to probably end slumping pretty badly. When I play I always find that theres so much emotional intensity that nothing else could ever match the highs that you can get from a session, but as with any high there has to be the come down eventually. This one I think is going to suck pretty badly, but figure it'll have been worth it. I've had such a fantastic time recently and got to experience some very pleasant feelings and emotions
This last week has got me thinking a lot about what I am actually looking for in life, so much of my life revolves around the BDSM scene, all my friends are involved within it to some degree or another, it's within the scene and more particularly the local group http://www.alternativeni.co.uk/ that I have my main support and feel that I can be myself, and indulge in all my kinky pastimes.
Somehow I've currently ended up with quite a number of play partners, part of me is wondering if thats a good thing or not, am I just playing with a lot of people so I dont become close to anyone person to protect myself? I dont think I am? I know theres a big difference in way I feel during and after play with people I am close to rather than just people I'm aquainted with. I love the feeling and the emotional connection during the scene with those that I have high levels of trust with, certainly is a lot more intimate feeling, even if no sex has occured during the session.
I think its that intimicy that I am getting addicted to, despite the fact that I play with a lot of people there is a closeness I think between me and a lot of those, the levels of trust I have with people is greater than I've ever had with anyone in the past. Would I still be capable of being monogamous? I dont know anymore? Really not sure what i'm after anymore, what I do know is that I'm not after encounter after encounter just for the sake of kinky sex :)
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